Behind The Mask

Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain 
Hiding the tears that fall like rain.
Saying I'm fine, when I'm anything but,
This ache in my soul rips at my gut.
My skin is on fire, I burn from within.
The calm on my face is an ongoing sin.
The world must stay out, I've built up a wall.
My fragile lie will collapse should it ever fall.
Loneliness consumes me, it eats away the years
Until my life is swallowed by unending fears.
Waiting for someone to see I wear a mask
And care enough to remove it, is that too much to ask?

To God I Cry

I cry out does anyone hear me

I long to be free

From these burdens no matter how much I pray

They seem to stay

God have you forgotten me

Will you ever hear my plea

I feel so alone


Not even a place to call home

So many tears I've cried


So many people have lied


I am broken in spirit and in heart


From your word I do not part

The road is getting long
Not sure I have the strength to carry on
I try to not lose my trust
For trust in you I must

Just a sign or word from you 
To let me know your promises are true
As I lay awake at night
You are just quiet

I know not which way to turn


I am asking for your help to learn


Help me I plead


For I need help indeed

Take my hand and show me the way


And I will do as you say


No excuses will be given


I just want to start living

I want my joy back


No more sorrow or lack


I want to dance shout and sing


and tell the world that you gave me everything

Protect the ones I love


And send your angels from above


To place me where you want me


For all the world to see

I give to you my life


And ask you to remove the strife


That through the rejection and pain


The world will see you remain

I know I have failed you 


And hurt the ones I love too


I ask you to forgive me


and let me be free

The Battle

The words that have yet been spoken 
the things I need to say. 
To voice what's within my heart
I just can't find a way.

I've fought with my emotions
I've held them deep inside. 
I didn't want to face what for so long 
you've tried to hide.

I've been lost within the dark 
for so long I've seen no light. 
Holding on to the memory
of a time when things were right.

I've looked upon your face
and seen the sadness in your eyes. 
The battle of addiction 
you no longer can disguise.

I've prayed to find the answers 
of what I myself must do.
And I've prayed for the strength to fight 
through the hell that I go through.

I've held on for so long
but I can no longer watch you die.
I cannot fight this for you 
but lords knows how I've tried.

It's just so hard to watch the ones you love 
slowly slip away.
That's why I just blocked it out 
and held on to yesterday.

I don't have all the answers 
or the power to save your soul.
Your broken, lost and lonely 
and I cannot make you whole.

This fight is yours and yours alone
no matter what I do.
For I cannot save you 
the only one who can 
is you.